::Life aNd iTs uPs n DowNs::

reality bites.

2012-02-01T02:00:00.002+10:00

It probably feels like we have just gone through a very bad break-up with our beloved Brissy world, and what's left to be done now is to move on with our lives, right here, right now. Thank you for the experience Australia, you've been wonderful. And it really is back to reality now.

Keep on fighting comrades! The last chapter of our B. Ed story. Lets craft even more beautiful memories and awesome moments =)

jangan menyerah.

2011-09-18T23:55:00.003+10:00

I know that something's wrong, and I know that you have problems. But I can't help, I don't know how to help. And that just kills me.

I wish that I have all the strength in the world. So that I can give them to you both. Stay strong my dearly sayangs. Always by your side, for both of you, praying.

eid.

2011-08-31T18:01:00.002+10:00

just not where i wanna be.

"When my arms can’t reach people close to my heart, I always hug them with my prayers." Baca ni pun nangis. Gila punya budak.

eid mubarak.

kenapa rasa sedih?

2011-06-06T20:11:00.007+10:00

life is too scary sometimes. scared of the future. scared of the fact that i have to grow up, and move on. that i sometimes feel like just hiding myself in the room. but until when can i do that? because life itself is temporary. what remains only the hereafter. biar susah di dunia, demi kesenangan di akhirat.

one of those melancholy moments. again. but why now? at this moment? kenapa rasa sedih? because i suddenly feel like i am all alone. in this big. terrifying. world.

*Alhamdulillah atas nikmat Allah bagi hari ni. unexpected. happy. tapi rasa ironi, gembira dlm sedih. rasa tak bersyukur pun ada, Allah dah bagi nikmat, still sedih-sedih lagi. Astaghfirullah al-azim T_T*

nothing is ever coincidence.

2011-05-12T23:03:00.000+10:00

“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.” -Anonymous-

You know how you thought you have all the time in the world to do something? Well, you don’t, actually. And you’ll end up regretting not doing that something earlier. It’s all really about the choices we make. And what do we have really, other than choices?

It ain’t gonna be easy. But it will be worth it.

Winter breeze in autumn. 14'C. Flu. Headache. Feverish.

*Hakikat bahagia. Bahagia itu pilihan*

the journey

2011-04-26T00:39:00.005+10:00

Jaulah Seerah Autumn 2011 to Coffs Harbour. Journey begins tomorrow morning. May all go well and may Allah bless our journey. =)

rumah manis rumah.

2011-04-02T21:42:00.002+10:00

I miss a whole bunch of things. But on top of all, i miss home. Ahh, memories. Irreplaceable. =)

old times.

2011-03-30T21:19:00.006+10:00

i miss those times. when things were a lot simpler.

*oh, perlis banjir lagi..huu~wahai reporterku, please keep the updates coming!*

19032011

2011-03-19T23:25:00.006+10:00

Because what would life be, without a little adventure, right?

Yes.

Definitely.

Of course.

Oo yeah, I got lost, again, alone this time. And my phone ran out of battery, which made it ‘perfect’. Hahaha~~So much for an adventure. Thank God good people are around. =)

*Best gak la wandering around tanpa arah tuju in the rain. Nasib bawak payung~hihi ;)*

the one and only

2011-03-12T22:02:00.003+10:00

mama =))

reality check.

2011-03-09T00:12:00.007+10:00

The first time is always the scariest. You either don’t know what to expect, or you expect too much. And you either don’t know what to think, or you think too much. Not knowing what to expect, how to react, what to do, and most importantly, not having control over things that may or may not happen often freak me out. But I was once told that life is all about taking chances; having the guts to push yourselves and throw yourselves out more. Because it is from those experiences that we grow and mature. One thing I've learnt, fear should not be made the reason why we’re holding ourselves back and letting go the opportunities that we have. So, gear up for the new adventure! It's coming your way!

A lot of first-time-experience this week. Intimidating yet exciting.

*and oh, have I told ya that I’m back in Brisbane?derrrr~*

ini entry merepek.

2011-03-06T23:35:00.008+10:00

ughhhhh sabar. sabar. sabar. boleh tak, nak lari pergi Guatemala.

"sometimes i just wonder who would care if i just walked out of their lives. who would try to keep me and who would watch me go."

*terasa begitu loser. suka emo sorang-sorang. gila. oh, ini detik melancholy lagi. tak cool langsung*

oh oh?

2011-01-27T13:39:00.007+10:00

blog has been on hiatus again. am currently unwell. sick sick sick sickening. and ohhh, omg, i found ya. the power of blog-walking. when you least expect it.

*actually bukak blog sbb tgk emel, ada comment from cik kd sayang~hee hey hey missy! selamat berblogging kembali! *

the long-awaited summer break

2010-12-02T00:28:00.005+10:00

Heyho peeps! Feel like I owe this blog a little update. Nothing much to tell actually, except the fact that I am happily back in Malaysia. Weehuuu home sweet home bebeh! Spending my summer break here, all the way till the mid of February; a long one indeed, couldn't ask for more =)

So like any other individual would do during holidays, I've been stuffing myself with food; great yummylicious scrumptious food and enjoying the company of family, friends and relatives~much loveeeeeeeee ;)

That's pretty much about it so far. Will be updating shall I find myself into something interesting =p

*Hey you, it's been a while*

melancholy

2010-10-28T20:05:00.006+10:00

Have you ever felt sad for no apparent reasons? I have, in fact a lot lately. The same old feeling. I miss home.

"Crying doesn't indicate that you are weak. Since birth it has always been a sign that you are alive."

what are you saying?

2010-10-07T12:17:00.003+10:00

You know what I like the most about my life here? Waking up to the sound of chirping birds. It's like a completely new day, with new hope and new opportunity. Forget yesterday's trouble and misery, and start afresh today! It just helps to set the mood right. Take a deep breath, let go, and smile. It works every single time. =)

Today's the day. Mama, I'm so proud of you! ;))

*Kerana makhluk marikh itu semua sama. I should have known better. Wahai November, cepatlah datang!* =D

random

2010-10-07T12:09:00.003+10:00

I have always made my life here sound lamentable, haven't I?Because my posts here would mostly center around sad things. But that ain't all true. It has been a pretty wonderful journey so far, and I have had fun blissful moments that I enjoyed, especially with my girlfriends here. But because I am too lazy to write them down, I don't normally put all those into words. But hey, life's been treating me well so far. So worry not (bajet ada org risau =p), I'm doing fine here. Assignment wave is slowing down; only two left, and one exam paper, then I'll be free from this semester's misery!weehuuu ;))

ijustwannagohome

2010-08-26T21:54:00.006+10:00

I want to go home, to the place where I don't have to put on a tough act, where I don't have to be independent, where I don't have to deal with all these stuffs, where there is no misery, where there is tranquility. I miss home. I miss the feeling I feel when I am at home.

T_T

2010-08-26T13:46:00.003+10:00

What are you doing? Wipe those tears away!

one of those days

2010-08-25T20:53:00.005+10:00

Because in life,there are just times when you have to make those choices; the one that you find so hard to do, but you have to do it anyway. This is one of those times. Chin up dear self, everything is gonna be okay. =)

uh-uh?

2010-07-23T14:44:00.003+10:00

nope, it's not a good feeling. enough said.

*i know i should do more than posting a 2-sentence-entry (i can see a series of short entries in this blog) but i think i have lost the desire to write long entries though i have lots of things on my mind. instead of elaborating everything, i would just write a couple of sentences that kinda sum up all these little things that i feel. okay, longer entry next time, or maybe i should just opt out of blogging and start tweeting instead.*

awaken

2010-07-17T21:51:00.009+10:00

"Smart people talk about ideas. Common people talk about things. Mediocre people talk about people." - Jules Romains

Dang dang dang~

17th July 2010, i shall remember you for a long time. Thanks! =)

...

2010-07-12T15:44:00.006+10:00

it's not something that i can explain. full stop. =)

"but i'll just smile, i'll go ahead and smile"

^^

2010-07-11T20:14:00.008+10:00

Winter vacation yang sangat best! dapat main salji~hee

~Mount Buller, Victoria~

*more update to come if rajin* ;)

huu~

2010-06-11T19:10:00.004+10:00

cold. freezing. headache. flu. fever attack.

now who says anything about going home? i'm perfectly 'fine' here. T_T

winter break

2010-06-07T13:32:00.004+10:00

It feels so weird to not be at home for these quite long holidays (about 6 weeks).

Usually, I'll be lazing around at home, watching tv (not that I don't do that here =p) but still, it's not the same. To be at a place that's like a school during holidays, it just ain't feel right. My first time of not going back to my hometown during a long break. Owh i miss home, and the food T_T

I get pretty clueless as to what to do here, but luckily me and my friends volunteered for a children festival, Out of The Box, which will be held from 8th-14th June (it starts tomorrow) at Cultural Centre, South Bank. A little something to do =)

And it gets colder these days, no snow here but the chilly wind's enough to cause shivery. Yosh~~

*4th June 2010, practices officially began* ;)

...

2010-06-06T19:22:00.001+10:00

i just don't understand people sometimes...too complicated..yosh~

2010-05-16T12:58:00.003+10:00

what's with the sudden headache? aigoo~

c'mon body and soul, work with me..

we gotta keep sending those drafts..

*hepi teacher's day*

rambling again

2010-05-11T23:15:00.003+10:00

I hate Private Practice because the stories in it are soooo complicated; they messed with my emotions and got my mind twisted! But I still watch it every week. =D

*assignments are ambushing again~oh nooo*

think, reflect, act~

2010-05-11T14:33:00.003+10:00

I've been blog-walking again these past few days, an activity that i used to do regularly, but had left it behind for quite some time. I crashed into so many interesting blogs and I'm loving all the new blogs I'm following.

There's this one particular blog that stayed on my tab for days, as I'm still reading her old posts and entries. The more i read her blog, i'm feeling more impressed with her writings. She's younger, yet she's wiser. She's younger, yet she's stronger.

Scrolling down her old entries, I came to realize that she's actually sick (i'm not sure what kind of sickness, i need to continue reading, but it has something to do with her bones and i think that it's something related to osteoporosis as she mentioned about dislocating her bones and she's been going back and forth to the hospital for check ups and treatments since she's small).

There's this one particular entry of hers that went straight to my heart and had me crying. Because of her back pain, she has to pray on a chair and she couldn't do the regular sujud. She wrote:

'Ya Allah, apalah dosaku hingga tidak mampu sujud pada Mu...'
'Sedang sujud itu terlalu dekat dengan Mu...'

I cried, not because I feel pity for her, but because I'm ashamed that I'm not making full use of the gift of health that Allah grants me and I'm touched with her strong will and determination, that she does not make her sickness a reason for her not to perform her duty to Allah.

She's sick and she's sad because that brings limitation to her in performing ibadah but we, who have perfect health and strong body, often take things for granted.

*Astaghfirullah al azim, reflect diri, jangan sampai nikmat dah ditarik baru nak menyesal*

Wallahualam~

...

2010-05-09T11:55:00.004+10:00

I woke up with a heavy troubled mind, and wished my mom happy mother’s day.

It craved a smile on my face, but also brought tears in my eyes.

Happy mother's day mama. I love you! Don't worry, I'll take good care of myself and I'll be fine here.

T_T

2010-05-07T17:14:00.003+10:00

No, I don't understand

Tak, saya tak paham

No no entiendo

Nein, ich verstehe nicht

Non, je ne comprends pas

No non capisco

Feel like translating this sentence to hundreds of languages.

No, i don't understand, and i never will.

Uggh!

the thing called life

2010-04-29T17:39:00.008+10:00

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!" ~Rocky Balboa~

Let the fighting spirit continue to rise, never ever give in to the devil’s temptations of breaking you down! ^^

heartless

2010-04-26T23:54:00.003+10:00

Dear family and friends, I've deactivated my Facebook account for a while..There's nothing to worry, I'm perfectly fine (well, I hope so)..Just having some emotional issues going on and just feel like doing it..Shall anything come up, just hit me in YM, Skype or simply email me =p

weee =D

2010-04-14T15:13:00.005+10:00

Yeay i've got my parcel!! Melin!! Thanks soooo much for taking the trouble to post the novel ;) Versus2~ yeayyyyy!!

But I can't start reading yet~ughh the assignments..

I'm gonna attack the novel once I'm done with my presentation and I've submitted my assignments..Can't wait! =D

*current mode:blissful (screw those assignments =p)*

rambling

2010-04-14T00:16:00.008+10:00

what would you do if your two daughters are diagnosed with leukemia and you can only save one of them?how would you choose which one to be saved?how could you even choose?it's like saving one's life while watching another one dies..even if you chose one, can you live with the fact that you let the other daughter dies?how can you wake up every morning, look at the survived daughter, and not think about the dead daughter of yours?how can you move on with your live when one of your daughters does not have the chance of living life because of the decision you made?how could you?

*budus punye cite, menambahkan saket kepala lg ade la..yg aku g tgk apsal?budus gak..arggh nk gile..assignments, i LOVE you!each and every one of you..ughh*

assignments ohh assignments~

2010-03-25T13:40:00.004+10:00

I think the most challenging part of uni life is completing all the assignments and assessments-this was what i wrote during writing workshop for patches program last week =p

I've been lazing around at home for too long that I think, I actually forgot how to study (haha =D) and completing my demanding workload is such a hard thing to do. My assignments are all pilling up and I have a seem-to-never-end to-do-lists. When can I tick items off my list? The answer remains unknown. Yosh~

2010-03-20T13:18:00.002+10:00

it's time like this that seriously makes me wanna go home~ *sigh*

the start of somehing new

2010-02-24T10:36:00.031+10:00

Howdy peeps! Just a little bit of updates from Aussie =P

Okay so now i am finally in Brisbane, the city that sleeps early?- because the shops close at six! Haha owh but people here have other agenda at nights; partying! Gosh, all the loud musics and the knocks on the door~

Life's been treating me pretty well so far. Have only started a few classes, still having leisure time, exploring around and holding a series of photography session (going to GoldCoast this weekend, following the uni's trip) =D

Being here for about two weeks, i've been going around, visiting places and getting to know the city better. Gotta say, million thanks to the C5-IPBA seniors for the genuine care and patience in helping us since we first got here and showing ways around the campus and the city. Really appreciate it! And oh, two of my schoolmates are here; Aliaa and Faten (my seniors now), they've been a major help! =D

I have to admit that i am still trying to comprehend the fact that, yes, this is really happening, and yes, i am no longer in Malaysia. But sometimes, i feel that being here is not much different than in Malaysia, except for the fact that Brisbane's time is 2-hour quicker than Malaysia, and the prayer times are earlier (Subuh is around 4.15 am).

And oh, it's not that difficult to get Halal food and products here, just that before buying things, i have to check the codes to ensure it's halalness (is there such word? haha). But to buy food outside is quite costly, so we usually cook our own meals and yes, i still eat rice everyday! =P The weather here is pretty much like Malaysia; hot because it's still summer, but it won't be long before autumn comes knocking in, as it gets more windy these few days.

So for this sem, i only have 3 days of classes; Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday. On Tuesday, the classes are quite packed and i have one class at 5-8, but there's a surau at B block and the lecturer gives a 10-minute break around 7, so Alhamdulillah, there's nothing to worry about performing Maghrib prayer. =)

And what else huh? I think that's pretty much about it. It's still the beginning of the journey, so there's not much of the tough parts yet (like the abundance of assignments and critical economical issue). I am still trying to adapt to this new surrounding, with people of different language, slang, and culture. At the same time, i have had some fun and excitement living my life here with all my friends, though sometimes my mind would fly far across the countries, thinking about Malaysia(the food particularly) and my family and friends back there. Oh well, this is life i guess. Things do change, and let's just hope that greater things would fall together.

the unknown

2010-01-20T01:22:00.004+10:00

Holiday’s coming to an end, and soon, a new journey will begin. I try not to think much about it and just pretty much enjoy spending these last few weeks here in Malaysia. Huu~

Had a pre-departure briefing last Wednesday and I stayed over at the college for a few more days, spending some time (and money =p) with my other coursemates. During the three consecutive days of shopping spree in KL, I once stepped into Borders, had a quick and random screening of books and this one title of a book caught my attention- "BEFORE WE SAY GOODBYE". I just had a glimpse of the title; not even knowing who the author was nor what the book was all about, but that one particular phrase stayed in my mind.

::Before We Say Goodbye::

It had me thinking about the things I need to do, matters I need to deal with and all the preparations I need to make before going abroad, before biding goodbye. Am I ready to go? Have I accomplished all my to-do-list which I had in mind when I first started the holidays back in November? Have you? It won’t be long before the moment of saying goodbye comes and with the ticking clock, I am trying to make full use of whatever time I have left here.

With its pros and cons, one could not deny that the opportunity of studying abroad does offer worthwhile experiences that would help someone to grow and mature. Even with that fact in mind, I can't help but to still have a mixture of feelings about going over. Scared? Hell yes I am! With every day passes by, I am freaking out even more and more. But I'm trying to look at the bright side of things and I keep reassuring myself that this would be the best way to help me develop and strengthen myself to face life challenges, hence becoming a better person.

It is still a long journey of life. No one says it would be easy, but that should not stop us from treasuring life. So stop worrying, cherish the moment, and let's cry together once we get there...erk? =p

huh!

2010-01-03T01:07:00.006+10:00

NO, i am not okay!
i thought i am fine, that i have recovered, and the wound is healed.
but i am not fine, i have not recovered and the wound still bleeds severely.
i hate how easy it is for "that issue" to get into me, mess with my mind and affect my emotion massively.
i thought i had it under controlled, but obviously that is not the case.
why can't i just move on?? ughhh!

biding goodbye to 2009

2010-01-01T12:20:00.005+10:00

2009 is not a good year for me, it's not a year that I'm proud of..
looking back on my 2009 journey, i would mostly remember all the bad things; all misery i went through, all mistakes i've done, all wrong calls i made, all decisions i regretted..
nevertheless, i've said it before, and i'll say it again, the best thing about all the life dramas i had, it was made clear to me who my real friends are.. =)

anyhow, not everything was sad and gloomy about 2009..i had enjoyable moments when tears of joy and happiness were shed.. =D

so, sayonaro 2009, hello 2010! wishing for better days and more beautiful moments..
let's open a whole new chapter in our lives and be sure to paint it with smiles and laughter, the genuine cure to sorrow and misery..

p/s: updating this little bloggie is my new year resolution..so resolution's achieved! =D

love letter~bitter sweet memories of QUTeez Cohort 1

2009-11-13T02:22:00.001+10:00

To be in the TEFL program is something that I had not dreamed of. To carry the title of a “teacher trainee” is something that still sends chills down my spine as the responsibility attached to the title is undeniably huge. To know the fact that one day, I AM GOING TO BE A TEACHER is something that never fails to scare me.

Having spent almost two and a half years as a trainee teacher, there have indeed been so many collections of experiences and so many creations of memories. Nothing comes easy in this world and this program has definitely brought some pains and difficulties along the way especially when the assignments come crashing our head and mind all at once. As we kissed goodbye to the year 2008, the foundation years of QUT C1 were officially over and entering 2009, a new journey as degree students began for us.

Reflecting back on those days when we first joined the program, I can still remember the innocent faces of young minds who sometimes looked unsure of the reason for them to be in this program, the moments when we were all wondering whether we had made the right choice and whether we had chosen the right profession, whether we will make it to the end and whether we can survive the trials and challenges throughout the journey. The earlier part of the program had no doubt been a real challenge as we were all still pretty much clueless as to what to expect. Nevertheless, the lecturers have always been there to guide and assist us, and the support from families and friends helps to keep us on track and to not give up. We definitely have to thank our committed lecturers for always being there to wipe away the uncertainties we had and for building such a strong foundation in us through their hard work and dedication in educating us and preparing us to become great teachers of the future.

And now that we are about to finish the first year of degree, and with Brisbane expecting us next year, it is going to be a whole new journey again as we craft over a new leaf in our pursuit of becoming future teachers. Another road, another challenges indeed. So C1, buckle up your seat belt, tight up your helmet and put on all the armours you have as it is not going to be an easy one over there. These past two years have been a real wonderful journey, along with all the sad, funny and happy life dramas that we had. Together we fall, we stumble, we laugh, we cry, and we have gone through the growing and maturing process and together, we have evolved. So the journey continues and for sure there will be bumpy roads ahead. But worry not, we have the greatest weapon to face the war; the love and care that we have for one another. We have each other to be relied upon and to depend on. So let’s continue the journey, keep on creating beautiful memories and build new exciting experiences. Always remember, rule number one, WE ARE A FAMILY. =)

*this was written for Communique but i thought, oh well, might as well post it here.. =D*

b.ed tefl cohort 1

2009-11-12T23:43:00.006+10:00

i guess this week would be the last week of us attending college, next week we are all off to BTN and the week after that, the holidays would start..this semester would be the last semester of the C1 to be in the college, next February, insyaAllah the C1 family will be flying to Aussie..

just now, we had a farewell lunch together with the lecturers from our foundation and degree program..it was great..that could be the last time of us seeing the lecturers, those who had the responsibility of nurturing and guiding us to become who we are today, those who had been unquestionably committed in educating us and those who had poured in their love and care while preparing us for the real world..we were babies, who crawled and needed to be held, but now, i think we are slowly walking on our own, cautiously letting go of the helping hands and taking steps independently..it won't be long before we start running.. =)

going over there, i know the challenges would be even bigger, tougher, deadlier?
it would be a whole new world as we are left on our own to steer the direction of our ship of lives..and with a new responsibility attached to me, it won't be easy..with this new "position", i know people would somehow see me differently, my words and actions would be judged..but i see this responsibility rather as an opportunity for me to improve myself as well and i realized that there are other aspects than studying that need to be improved on..mental and spiritual preparations need to be made and self-bucking-up sessions are crucially in demand..

so are you up for the challenge??i hope i am.. =p

weird is one way to describe it

2009-11-05T02:23:00.005+10:00

*this is more of a 'self-express' post..just skip this one if it is not of your interest*

in the last two months, so many things happened..
conflicts, arisen issues, unspoken disputes, many truly mind-bugging and heart-breaking incidents happened..
buckets of tears wasted.. =p
alhamdulillah i survived to this day..
it's a wonder how i did..
it has been a real tough episode of my life..
with the piling up of assignments (which were all safely handed in) and the final exam (which just ended), spiced up with all my life dramas, pheww it was indeed chaotic..

i find myself unconsciously saying things i don't really mean..
and how easily it is for people to misunderstand and misjudge me..
i guess that makes me a perfectly typical human being who makes mistakes on a regular basis..
i wish i could say that all those "experiences" mature me but up to this moment, i seriously don't know..

then came another conflict..
as if the existed situation was not enough to break me down, came another virus which infected the whole system of my body and soul, wiping out whatever faith i had left..
of course there were some flaws on me for the conflict happened..
it came as a shock, something i would not have expected..
and i reacted like how i think other normal human being would react..
i snapped, was not able to control my emotion..

"anyone can become angry — that is easy, but to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way — that is not easy" (aristotle)
very true indeed~

a friend asked, how did i manage?
to be able to handle one of the biggest conflicts in my life when it was so near to the exam, to still be able to put up with life when everything was such a mess..
truth be told, i was not good in managing it at all..
of course i said i'll be fine, but my emotional state was constantly going up and down on a roller coaster ride..
it was tough, i had to restructure myself, i had to reprogram my thinking, i had to rethink of all my actions and i definitely had to pick myself up from where i fell..

but it is in tough times like these that i discover who my real friends are..
who would have faith in me when others don't..
who would stand by me when the rest of the world walk out on me.. =)

"life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they are supposed to help you discover who you are"

oh well, i hope this is true..
i'm still learning about the harsh reality i'm living in..

IF...

2009-09-09T02:52:00.006+10:00

if screaming could solve problems, i would have lost may voice long ago
if crying could take the burdens away, there would not be enough buckets to hold my tears
if running could settle issues, i would be needing a new pair of shoes continuously
if jumping could relieve my mental pain, my feet would be swollen all the time
if punching could heal my bitter heart, my bleeding hands would be those to be noticed first

but that is not the way things work in the real world..there is no easy way of dealing with arisen issues and settling problems..it takes patience and determination for one to continue fighting day by day in trying to survive in this complicated world of living..the key is simple, yet hard to be done--> never give up!

What is love all about~

2009-08-11T03:20:00.002+10:00

A friend once told me, to be in love is like climbing a hill right to the top. At the beginning of the climb, although the girl refuses to start the journey, the guy will continuously persuade and plead the girl to do so, talk her into trusting him as he would be there to guide and assist the girl, ensuring that she will make it to the top safely. When the girl agrees to start climbing and finally reaches the top, the guy will slowly let go of the hands that once firmly held the girl and vigorously push the girl down from the top of the hill. The pain of falling from the highest peak of the hill, pushed by the trusted guy who once convinced the girl to start the climbing is how the pain of being hurt by LOVE feels like. Our trust and hope are crushed by a man we believed in, who promised to always be there for us, guiding us throughout the journey. So yeah, LOVE is THAT CRUEL..

To see how my friends suffer because of their ruined relationship makes my heart aches. To witness how their trust is torn apart by an undeserving guy who once swore that fidelity is his principle of life makes my heart bleeds. I am no expert in this lovey-dovey thingy but seeing how miserable they are because of some stupid men with their stupid love affairs, I can somehow feel their pain, I can somehow sense that they are crying inside though they put up a happy face on the outside.

What’s the point of being in love anyway if at the end of it, we are going to suffer and pain would be the only feeling we have left??

Friends, please be strong and no worries, WE’ll always be here for you guys.. =)

p/s: I'm still in the midst of finishing my SBE..will be updating soon (I hope) on that..

p/s 2: Qteez, miss you guys!!can't wait to go back to college??hee~

safely blown the 20 candles...

2009-08-02T17:54:00.003+10:00

howdy peeps!
first of all, wanna express my deepest gratitude for all the birthday wishes (and the coming PRESENTS??) hee~
last Wednesday, I'm officially 20.. =D
Nadira, you were the first to wish..exactly 12 a.m and my phone rang..hee thanx babe.. =)

so a little update..
I just finished my one-week-free-h1n1 holiday.. =)
gotta start my 2 weeks of school-based-experience tomorrow..
supposedly, it should start last week but due to the free holiday my college had, it's postponed..
seriously not in the mood of going back to school, completing the multiple tasks assigned...
i am already flooded with assignments (which i didn't even bother to look at during the sweet holidays)
the hectic life is coming in again..turning back to the half-dead working zombie...huhu

*ayuh kembali ke sekolah*

p/s: Qteez..happy schooling..haha see you guys in 2 weeks! =)

my yummy birthday cake..
*nak lagi nak lagi*

l.i.f.e

2009-07-21T01:21:00.002+10:00

in the middle of a crisis, all the goodness and kindness one's made would be forgotten, leaving the mistakes and bad things of that person to be constantly remembered, continue to burn the bleeding heart of the other party..

...

2009-07-20T01:41:00.004+10:00

do we always feel the need to conform to other people's approval and acceptance?
sometimes i hate myself for doing that, for thinking too much of what others think of me, for wanting too much for others to like and maybe think highly of me, for actually valuing those insignificant others' opinions

it's stupid because it's a sign of insecurity, which i should not be having
it's pathetic because only those who are not confident with themselves feel that way
it's lame because only losers do that

so does that make me a stupid, pathetic, lame duck??

laugh WITH anyone, but never laugh AT anyone

2009-07-15T02:24:00.002+10:00

laughter is indeed the best medicine..when everything does not feel right and when things are getting complicated, having a friend to laugh with may lessen the burden and lighten our gloomy day a little..so yea, laugh WITH anyone but something that we should constantly bear in our mind is not to laugh AT anyone...

just like how words have the power to heal or to break, our actions influence people around us both positively and negatively..i recalled an incident whereby i accidentally laughed AT someone, a dearest friend of mine to be exact..

during my foundation years when i was compelled to stay at the hostel, i had a little study group, preparing for a mock exam at that time (study group usually works best for me)
there were 4 of us, living on the same floor at the hostel..so we had our study plan and all, to ensure that we were right on time to cover all the topics (bajet systematic...haha)

so one night (we studied at night because obviously we had classes during the day), we had our study group as usual..we were discussing language description that particular night and we came across some terms that created confusion..

it was something about complement verbs (kot) and we were like asking each other what's that bla bla bla..then this particular friend of mine thought it was "compliment" so she explained in such manner that the function of it is to praise bla bla bla (yela compliment tuh giving praises la kn)

me and the other friends laughed like hell, saying dei, that's "COMPLIMENT" la..not "COMPLEMENT" (when i come to think of it, normal la for ppl to mix up words..i do it like all the time..argh we were damn cruel..huu~)

we were like laughing a lot, and she was hurt with our non-stop laughing, she immediately packed her things, and rushed back to her room..we were stunned, didnt expect her to react such way because we felt like we were joking around..it was in the middle of the night, needed some "fun" to stay awake..but apparently, it was no fun for her..

feeling guilty, instead of studying language description that night, we studied the art of apologizing...adei~

i didnt think it was that serious, because for me it was only a joke...but for her, we were like degrading her and she felt insulted..(her most unforgettable sentence.. "tau la korang pandai" huhu ampun!!)

so, we each wrote a letter to her, saying that we did not mean to laugh at her, apologizing, promising not to do it again..thank God she was back to normal, and we live happily ever after..haha =p

sometimes, we do not think much about what we do but actually, our actions affect others especially those people around us..when we think that this one thing is funny, we have to remember that maybe that particular thing is not funny to others..so people, plz be careful when you think that you are plainly cracking a joke because some may take it to heart and feel offended...

p/s: we had our little tips to help us stay awake during the study group and no, it's not drinking nescafe or eating candies..you know how girls love to gossip?? during the study group, some of us would suddenly remember about "stories" to share, so what we did is to have that person kinda make a note about that story (so that she wont forget it) and we waited until we felt so sleepy that we could not open our eyelids, then that person would share the "story"..so the "story" was some sort of a refreshment for us in helping us to stay awake..and it works actually.. =D

little drama of our own...

2009-07-04T14:10:00.004+10:00

once,they were 3 good friends..let's name them X, Y, and Z..
they shared a kinda similar personality thus they easily blended (satu kepale la org kate)
they watched each other's back (it's the u-mess-with-my-friend-u-mess-with-me kind of thing), laughed their way out, shed tears together (bile tgk cerekarama..haha)

but as in other friendships, issues arose..
one day, something happened (that something had to be kept secret to not jeopardize the privacy of the friends)
Z had kinda said something, and X may feel a little bit taken aback..
and Y was stuck in the middle..

Z was not really in the mood that day due to some educational issues(wah) and Z kinda said no (about something) to X..Y was with Z at that time..
Y knew about it and thought it was not a big issue and X also did not think that it was even an issue..

but maybe Z felt guilty, then came a letter, addressed to both X and Y, apologizing and explaining what really happened..
Z was worried that X would be angry at Z, thinking that Y would go and tell X about the things that Z told Y..

but Z, you should have known Y well enough to know that Y would not go and tell X about those things..Y would not want Z and X to be in a cold state..but after the letter came, although X claimed that it was nothing and X's fine, both Y and Z knew X was not..

so what will happen next?will things go back to normal??
we shall wait and see~

friends, along the bumpy road of friendship, we will surely come across some obstacles and we may get involved in some kind of "accident" but that is indeed normal..issues will definitely arise in any kind of relationships..but to heal after being injured in the "accident" may take times as wounded hearts are not easy to heal..but remember not to take too much time as the beauty of the friendship may fade away..

p/s: QUTeez, allowance's in!jom2 shopping..wee~

t.r.i.f.l.e

2009-06-30T02:15:00.003+10:00

i dream of a better world where parking cars would not be an issue..seriously!

my college has this issue of not allowing pre-service teachers to park their cars inside the college compound during office hours..and this is indeed irrelevant as there are enormous parking spaces (especially in the TESL block) to park the cars there..

i simply don't understand why they would make this such a big issue..they "kicked" us out of the hostel since there were not enough spaces, gotta give way to the juniors..and how do they expect us to come 2 classes as we stay outside of the college??walking??gosh~

today we've been called by the lecturer as we, the guilty offenders of rules ignored the warnings and kept parking the cars inside the college..so, we were fined and for days to come, we are strictly forbidden to park the car in the college compound, which means that we have to park the car outside and walk all the way to our classes, carrying along all the heavy books, climbing the hill...haish~

wonder..wonder

2009-06-27T23:20:00.004+10:00

I’m turning 20 this end of July. (ppl, plz notice the hint..you have 1 month to prepare the gift..haha =p)

But I still get the hey-you-look-like-you-just-finished-your-SPM when I’m in a conversation with someone I just met. Do I look that childish??huahua~

I don’t know why, but I get that a lot especially back in my hometown, when I’m out alone.

When I took my driving test last holiday (I finally had the courage to do so *wink*) I met lot of people who just finished their SPM, waiting to further their study (yela usually ppl amik driving license after abes SPM kn)

So biasela, getting to know new people, common question will be “study lg ke??kat mane??” but people would just ask me “baru abes SPM eh? 18 taun eh??” then I would say, “eh tak..da 20 taun ni” and common response would be “yeke?muka mcm br abes SPM” haish weird~

Since I took my SPM when I was 16, it’s been about 4 years already. How come ppl still think I just had my SPM??

Then if I’m out with my sis (she’s one year younger than me), people would ask who’s the big sis n sometimes, when we bumped into my sis’ friends, they would ask her “itu (me) adik eh?” how come la you??huhu~

My childish behavior can be seen from my face eh?? =p

Xpela, kasi chance rase muda sket..lalala~

monday is doom day...

2009-06-22T16:56:00.004+10:00

sweet-holiday time's over..i've started my classes again today.. *bosan bosan*
malas gile nk g klas...waa~

got the new unit guide which lists all the assignments for this sem..
as usual, there's tons of assignments that involve loads of reading and writing and reading and writing and writing and writing and writing (can u see how it's repeated over and over again??duh~)
it's time like this that i miss having dramatization as one of the assignments as there would be less reading and writing..huu~

and for this sem, we no longer stayed in the same classes as last sem..
we would be split and randomly mixed around with different people for the 3 main units..
so we would be studying and working with different friends for the 3 subjects but there are some lucky people who manage to be in the same group with their clique for all the 3 classes.. *jelez jelez*

so, there would be new lecturers, new subjects and new group mates this time around..

p/s: I'm officially broke, having to pay for all the books (which i doubt i would read) plus the rent for this month..err..some financial help anyone?? =p

:random:

2009-06-03T14:48:00.002+10:00

Hello peeps! Still enjoying my 3-week holidays back in my hometown..wee~

I went back to Perlis last Friday night, alone as my other Perlisan friends took an earlier ticket that particular night. I blamed myself for not buying the ticket earlier, as that was the only ticket left for Friday night, at 11 p.m. I would not mind going back alone if the bus is to be boarded at pudu, as it is not an issue for me to take the LRT alone to pudu but the thing is, I had to take the bus at duta which meant that I had to take a cab alone all the way to duta at night. It was indeed scary to be in the cab alone at night. I wasn’t sure whether the driver was an Indonesian or Jawa as he had this peculiar slang and that definitely added to the sense of creepiness I was feeling. It’s not that I’m not used of taking a cab alone but since it’s during night, and I’m all alone in the cab, and God knows what could happen, it’s kinda terrifying. Anyhow, I arrived safe and sound at duta. Thanx to those who were concerned and kept checking on me to see whether I’ve arrived at duta or not. =)

But that was not the whole drama I experienced that night. My bus which was scheduled at 11 pm was delayed for almost 2 hours and it was about 1 am when the bus finally made it way back to Perlis. Gosh! I had to wait there, all alone, bored, tired, and sleepy. Huu~ Anyhow, I’m glad to finally be back to my hometown.

With this semester ended, I’ve actually been carrying the title as a teacher trainee for almost 2 years now. It was when this one particular person asked me while waiting for our bus to come how long I have been staying in KL that it hit me that it’s been 2 years already. It took me a while before I answered as it had me thinking, how long has it been actually? Gosh, time really flies like an arrow (no pun intended =p). 2 years huh? No kidding! One semester left and soon we will be making our ways to QUT, Aussie. InsyaAllah~

So have I changed for the past 2 years? I guess so. Taking more responsibilities, getting more independent, solving things on my own, dealing with issues more calmly, err..becoming more matured?? *grin*

I guess we all change after a period of time. It’s just a matter whether the changes are for good or for worst. Things do not just stay the same. We change because of the experiences we experienced, the issues we dealt with, the problems and dilemmas we faced. All those spices of life add up to the development of the kind of people we are becoming and drive us towards transforming ourselves to become a better person. So don’t feel afraid of changes, it is indeed normal to face one. =D

KLPac - Dr. BunHead's VolcaNo Head

2009-05-27T00:36:00.013+10:00

today i went for another theatre-trip to klpac..the show was just ok..nothing spectacular bout it.. it's a science show i would say as this dr. bunhead actually performed few experiments to test some science facts and it involved lots of "booms"..and let me tell u, it was indeed very explosive!(earmuffs would be useful)
this show is actually meant for kids of the age of 8-11..but i guess our lecturers arranged for us to see it as we are going to be primary school teachers (duh~)
since it was meant for kids, of course there were lots of kids coming to watch the show..there was a bunch of australian kids from this private australian school in malaysia and some from other private schools..they were very (VERY) eager to be chosen as the volunteers and they would just raise their hands everytime the dr. requested for help from the audience *pick me pick me*
and of course, they enjoyed the show the most..most of us (the so-called adults) fell asleep during the show and only woke up to cover our ears before the explosions took place.. =p (but i managed to stay awake thruout the show..wee~)
anyhow, i would say the most enjoyable part of the trip is of course not the show, but the joy of capturing the moments we had at klpac..we took a lot (n i mean A LOT) of pics there (thanx 2 far with her precious "baby canon SLR") and thus, the journey of shutterbuggers began.. =)

::piece of mind::

2009-05-25T02:34:00.006+10:00

i've been browsing the blog of a senior of mine and i am totally astounded with her (plz note it's a "she") words n language.. *envy2* i like the way she writes n yes, she is indeed one good writer.. =) she shares a fair complaint of being unable to express what she feels verbally and how she would rather pen down (or in this case, type in) her thoughts n opinions in the free-to-express-yourself medium of blogging..the most concrete reason behind that "inability" is possessing poor interpersonal communication skills and perhaps, not having enough guts of voicing what you have in your minds..

i find more n more people turning to blogging as a way of expressing themselves as they feel more free to share their views on things as they are not bound to conform to people's opinions and they have the freedom to say their minds and express their feelings..after all, it's their blog and they have the liberty of writing down whatever they want..it's their call..

ok so back to this senior of mine..she has a good command of language and i wonder, how hard would it be for her to speak up as she has the language?with a little bit of self confident, she'll be a great speaker just like how great she is at writing..so is it fair to blame it all on the so-called poor communication skills that limit a person from speaking up and restrict that particular person from sharing his/her noble ideas?

and now with blogging in-trend, would it actually help in providing a medium for people to state their thoughts or would it just be a place that people turn to so as to avoid them from having to face the reality that they really should buck up and improve their communication skills to better able to express themselves verbally??

i personally use this blog as a means for me to express my thoughts and feelings, those things left unsaid and those emotions that keep clinging in my heart..i see blogging as a way of letting go my emotions..after all, bottled-up emotions may lead to nasty things..so it's better for us to find a way of pouring it all out in a positive manner before we crack down under the pressure of being unable to free our minds..

so it's a free choice actually...some people talk a lot, and some people just dont..of course for professional or work purposes, we need to be able to speak up and communicate with people rather than machine..but when it comes to expressing feelings or personal things, we have our own shares in deciding which means suits us the best..

till then.. good day peeps! =)

*i write to express, not to impress*

why??

2009-05-23T18:48:00.003+10:00

why do i have to be bothered about that?
u have ur life, n i have my own..
maybe my life is not as perfect as ur seem-to-be perfect life..
so what??i treasure every inch of it..
we have different circle of friends n we lead an undoubtedly different way of lives..
so let us just take separate ways..
maybe we once shared the same way..
but as the tense suggests, we no longer do...
so be it..

back off and stop haunting me!

tamat babak 1..hee~

2009-05-21T10:44:00.004+10:00

hoo yeah exam da abes!!
dat marks d end of da 1st sem of my 1st year degree... =D
so babak 1 -d exam taking part- is officially ended..
babak 2??result time loo..
aish dunno la how..tawakal jela..hmm
tp rase cm x sggup n msuk 2nd sem, with all d assignments which no doubt would be tougher n more demanding...huu~

*enjoying my so-called temporary freedom*

p/s: rase cam nk tgk cte "syurga cinta"..cam bez..haha jom2! =D

wee~

2009-05-04T01:38:00.003+10:00

juz nk ckp...
bez gile TOMOK mng OIAM!!
haha =D
tu je...
dah. study.

p/s: soleh, nnt lah ku update ini blog yea...cte psal xm mau??huahua~

haish~

2009-04-24T01:09:00.005+10:00

::problem problem::
heavily burdened wit problems...irrational...unrelevant...heart-breaking...mind-bugging...

::study study::
gotta start studying but no steps taken...still lazing around...wasting time...taking my own sweet time...doing nothing...

::exam exam::
final's coming...stress' building up...tension's rising...freaking out...soooo not ready...

::unspoken issues::
sensitive radar on its highest peak...over-sensitive...extremely emotional...take things to heart...trifles...but still...over-dose of emotions...

life doesnt make sense sumtimes...sabarlah hati...
*sigh*

Darn..im going to miss those “sciento” moments…

2009-04-22T02:46:00.004+10:00

As I mentioned before, I took science as my elective subject for this semester and today was the last science class I had as the semester is coming to an end (the following 2 weeks would be the study weeks and after that- xm!!)
Though I have complained about being too occupied with sciento work (it’s science work actually, I prefer to call it “sciento”…freedom of speech..wee~), I have to admit that I’m going to miss all those sciento classes and moments...
It’s kinda sad to end the class today, realizing how another semester has gone..i just hate to end something, knowing that I will never have the chance to go through the same routines like I did before…hmm~
Though it seemed like me together with my partner-in-crime, mina n my other group mates loved to play around in the class and didn’t pay attention to the lessons taught (we believed that we were black-listed by our lecturer as we created too much noise.. =p), I actually enjoy being in the classes, spending time with my friends, “lepak”-ing around…
Being in the science class actually made me realize about the world of teaching better as I was exposed to various teaching approaches and I had the chance to experience some real-teaching experiences…
Million apologies to our lecturer and thanx for all the knowledge and experiences shared…truly appreciate it… =)

p/s: wanna attach some pics but i realized that i dont have any pics taken in the lab...how come??huu~

r.a.n.d.o.m

2009-04-06T19:49:00.011+10:00

life without obstacles wud be lifeless...
life without relationships wud be lifeless...
we dun live a life alone...
we dun live a life on our own...

LIFE is a short word with wide definition n ppl perceive life differently...
der's no one specific idea of leading a hepi life as ppl dun share da same joy n sorrow..
some may value life as being preoccupied wit work while others may enjoy a relaxing day-to-day life wit same repeated routines which may be boring to some ppl...
we decide on da kind of life we want...

it's normal 4 our lives 2 be filled wit all kind of bullshits (mind my language)...
it's juz up 2 us whether we want to allow those things to get into us and stop us from treasuring life..

along d way on our path of lives, we'll meet lots of ppl who bring sorrow n misery in our lives...
but on da same road, we'll also find ppl who bring comfort, joy, hepiness n shine our lives wit their love..
da journey of finding and meeting those precious ppl is wat makes life worth living... =D

always treasure those special ppl around u...they may sumtimes be a pain in d ass but they will never fail to brighten ur day with their care n laughter...

life's short...
live it..love it..learn from it..

it's da teacher in me talking again... =p

2009-04-05T02:02:00.000+10:00

handling a classroom full of students with different abilities and wide range of personalities would be a handful one..in order to enable the T&L process to be conducted smoothly, teachers need to find a way to control da students... no matter how knowledgeable a teacher is, if he (or she) cant control da classroom, he would not be able to teach..

becoming a teacher is not juz about preparing oneself in terms of the mastery of the knowledge..it goes beyond dat as teachers need to be in control of their emotions as well...children would always be children...they are capable of challenging one's emotion and mental state to the highest level and without a strong determination, we would easily be defeated by the children's endless energy and childish behavior..

dat is why it is crucial for teachers to be equipped with not only high IQ, but also high EQ so as to better able to manage their emotions while teaching and avoid them from simply throwing tantrums at da students..

with high EQ, teachers would be able to handle stressful circumstances wisely..teachers would know the best way of handling da students' emotions and pulling them back to be focus to the learning process.. scolding da students would not be da best way of educating them...in tough times, it's better to talk to them, rather than to yell..possessing EQ will enable teachers to better handle the students in vary situations and help them to navigate their emotions to the right channel without disturbing the T&L process..

so educators out there, always remember that u not only need to improve ur IQ, but u would also need to contiunously upgrade ur EQ as it will do a lot of help in managing da students and da classroom...

~great teachers inspire~

e.m.p.t.y

2009-04-02T11:35:00.000+10:00

wanna post sumthg but hav no idea wat to write...
nothing interesting happenned...
life goes on a regular basis of attending classes+discussion+presentation
i'l write on sumthg once i've an idea yea.. wink*

Towards healthy living…yay! =)

2009-03-17T17:15:00.000+10:00

The title itself reveals what this post is all about. I am suddenly concerned about my state of health as it suddenly occurs to me that I’ve been neglecting my health for all these while. Let’s list down how I have been taking my health for granted.
1- I DON’T take MILK. Me n milk juz don match. Juz imagine how insufficient the calcium level in my body is as I stopped taking milk since I was 6 or 7 years old I guess. My bones must have been cracking…huu~
2- I rarely eat veggies. Cam malas je nk makan….haha
3- I consume too much egg. The suggested amount is 3 eggs per week but I think I have it daily and sometimes, 2 eggs per day… cholestrol2…aiyak!
4- I only take fruits when I am back at home (like now in Perlis). Bkn ape, it’s hard to find fruits in KL . Yang ade pn, ape yang djual kt café Kak Som kt TESL block tuh…betik n jambu..bosan~
5- N the list goes on n on n on……..

So, how to make things right? These are some of the ways that I think may lead me to a better and healthy living.
1- Take milk! Hoho…dis is a tough one..but I’ll start with taking chocolate drink. There’s milk in it right. So after dis holiday, I’ll be FORCING myself to buy chocolate drink (im thinking bout d dutch lady choc milk) and it has to be taken DAILY.
2- Include veggies in every meal I take. =)
3- Cut the no of eggs consumed! Follow the suggested amount, 3 eggs per week.
4- Take fruits regularly (though it means buying “betik” from Kak Som everyday).
5- I think I should include exercising in da list rite?but I’ll put dat on hold first. Haha =p

It appears that my so-called healthy diet is quite costly (Kak Som wil make more money of it =p ) Nonetheless, it is for the best. Mama ckp it’s ok to spend more on healthy living rather than to spend even more money in trying to cure all the diseases that may attack us in the future. Whatever it is, prevention is definitely better than cure. So let’s start living healthily! =D

p/s: dis post is meant as a reminder to myself to take my health seriously and having it posted would make me constantly aware that I have to obey it. So friends, do support me yea~

KLPac~Q-BistrO

2009-03-08T15:57:00.001+10:00

here's a quick recap on wat happened to me yesterday...im supposed 2 watch a performance called Wicked Wizard, which started at 5pm at KLPac today...bcoz d college's bus had limitied seats (duh~) those wit cars had 2 go der on their own...so, my coursemates n i gathered at d college at abt 3.30 but our journey only started at abt 3.50..der were like 7 cars all together, convoyed to KLPac..we werent quite sure of d road 2 get der so we had 2 rely on those who knew..but of coz, d traffic in KL is known 2 be jammed...we were stuck for abt an hour in d traffic...dis was when some of us got lost, unable to follow d other cars infront...after all d trouble, lots of phone calls n 'cilok' here n der, my car together wit d other 3 cars managed to reach KLPac at abt 5.30 pm...den we rushed in to watch d performnce n of coz, we missed d beginning of it...my frens in d other 3 cars were completely lost n dey only manged to reach der at abt 7pm..luckily dey cud change their ticket n catched d 8.30 show...d performance was quite ordinary, nothing outstanding (opps!)..it's a mere magic show being brought into a theatre-like performance...besides, some of their jokes were culture-bound and malaysians may not understand it...wasted rm 45???hmm...it's an experience dho...i did enjoy their performance...but frankly speaking, gamarjobat is so much more fun!! =)

after d performnce, we stayed der for maghrib prayer n went for dinner after dat at Q-Bistro which is located nearby my house...d ending of d day was an enjoying one as we dined together as a big grup (altho i didn finish my food...huu perut da masuk angin~) one word to describe my day today--> CHAOTIC!!

~frens for life =D

Q-BistrO...der were 12 of us all together~

ice skating~

2009-03-08T15:24:00.000+10:00

last friday (which was a holiday 4 us bcoz of sport's thingy), i went to sunway pyramid again n dis time, d sole purpose was 2 accompany a friend of mine 2 skate der(since d last time we went, d skating area was oredi closed)...so, upon reaching der at abt 12, we straight away went to the skating ring...i didnt plan 2 skate at 1st but at d end, all da 5 0f us did (teman kawan punye pasal =p)
anyhow, my 2nd experience of ice skating is not too bad la...der's been more skating n less falling (i only fell once..yay!) improved skills???boley la...der's more feeling of ice skating compared 2 my previous experience...hee~

here are some pics taken after we skated...

-->alia,syeena,wani,me,far<--

da thing called L.O.V.E

2009-03-05T20:26:00.000+10:00

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” -Neil Gaiman-

saje je nk post ni..cam bez..m sure at one point in our lives, every1 feels dis way especially when we fall for someone who doesnt love us back, or dat foolish somebody toys with our feelings...but, da thing with love is, no matter how hard we try to push da feeling away, we juz cant get over it... we cant choose who to fall in love with...sumtimes, we noe dat da guy (or gurl) is not da rite 1 for us..but we still dote on him..it's not sumthg dat we decide upon...it's sumthg dat juz happens and once it does, we are stuck wit da feeling no matter how much we hate it...dat's why ppl say, love can drive us crazy...we hate it but we juz cant get over it..so wat to do??

p/s: gambar sekadar hiasan...hee~

u mess with my friend, u mess with me…

2009-03-04T16:47:00.000+10:00

I always thought that this kind of ‘rule’ applies only to girls whereby girls value friendship as something precious and girls will stick up for their pals in whatever circumstances. However, I recently learnt that guys do the same thing. The ‘brotherhood’ bond between guys is also as strong as the ’sisterhood’ bond that is possessed by girls. When it comes to friendship, gender does not act as a distinguisher to distinguish between the closeness of a boy and a girl to his or her respective clique. The term ‘friendship’ itself reflects the bond one possesses with another person who may have the same personality with him or her, or a completely contradicting one. Commonly, friends become more attached and closer to one another as time passed by. This is simply because they go through things together and they learn to be by each other’s side in happiness and sorrow. As they spend lot of their time together and share their ups and downs in lives, the bond that they build becomes stronger and unbreakable. This is why, when one of the friends is in trouble or faces some difficulties with other person, his or her friends would immediately stand up for him or her. They feel the need to protect and defend their friend. If someone is messing with their friend, that means, he or she is messing with them to. They would even go to the extent of forming a ‘lynch mob’ in their attempt of defending their beloved friend. So a piece of advice to people out there, don’t pick a fight with someone who has the advantage of having this kind of friend because if you mess with their friend, you mess with them to. Instead of you against one person, you may have to face this one person together with a bunch of his or her friends. Things may get pretty messy! =p

huu~

2009-03-03T11:00:00.001+10:00

i miss my mom's cooking!!
huu cant wait 2 go home nex week...
sambal ayam yg sdap... =)
home sweet home..m coming bebeh!
but den hav 2 settle all d assgments 1st...
sigh*

::students vs. teachers??::

2009-03-01T15:52:00.000+10:00

a good student may not be a good teacher..regardless how clever dat teacher would be when he(or she) is studying, he would not be acknowledged as a good teacher if he doesnt know how to pass da knowledge to his students..he may be a clever student but he would not be a clever teacher if he doesnt know da right way of approaching his students..being clever would not guarantee a person to be a good teacher..wat matters is d ability of da teacher to transfer knowledge to da students..

im taking science as my elective subject and in this subject, i am not taught of all da scientific knowledge..instead, i learn about the teaching approaches and pedagogies in which would be useful for me to apply in da classroom once i start my teaching in years to come.. [it sounds scary...huu~] learning this widen my eyes to the actual process of teaching and learning and i realize dat being a teacher is not juz a matter of transmitting da knowledge but rather how da knowledge is transmitted..we have left behind da spoon-feeding technique whereby students juz absorb knowledge from teachers and we are moving towards guiding the students to construct their own knowledge, a process which requires full commitment from teachers in moulding the students to be actively involved in the T&L process...

and now i realize dat it's not easy to be a teacher!we carry a heavy burden in guiding the students to develop their best potentials, not only academic wise but also in developing their character building and best attitude..

err..it's too late 2 quit course huh?? =P

girls' day out-->sunway pyramid

2009-02-21T19:24:00.000+10:00

yesterday's afternoon, me n a bunch of frens went to sunway pyramid, trying 2 get our head off the philosophy assignment (which was safely handed-in...hee~) d original plan was 2 ice skate der..but of coz, d 1st thing 2 do is filling our empty stomach.. =) few of my frens dined at tony roma's but me n another 2 frens weren't quite 'attracted' to the menu der, so we chose 2 had our lunch at gasoline...d food was marvellous! highly recommended 4 everyone... =) i had a black pepper chicken chop (yummy!) n d 3 of us enjoyed our meals while happily chit-chating n gossiping around.. (thanx 2 'nuna far' for introducing d place) we planned 2 ice skate at night, after d maghrib prayer...recalling my 1st experience of ice skating last year, i was both thrilled n scared 2 give it another shot...i am soo not into skating thingy as i struggled when i did it last year...i fell counteless time n i'd call it "ice-walking+falling" rather than ice skating.. =p unfortunately, d skating place was closed at night (i think it's bcoz some ppl booked d place, so it's not open 4 public dat nite) my frens who were so eager to try out ice skating were so disappointed...nonetheless, we continued wandering around at sunway pyramid n drove home around 9.30 pm...it was a great day (except 4 d part we didnt have d chance 2 ice skate) n i believe, we all njoyed ourselves very much..i know i did.. =D

~d whole bunch of us--> d GGs~

~posing2 depan cermin~

~kema n alia in their own world..hee~

haish~

2009-02-19T01:43:00.000+10:00

hmm...is it me who's at fault??
so m nt considrate of others' feelings??
how come they judge me simply bcoz of dat?
r dey judging me??
i seyesly dunno....darn..
dis is nt a gud feeling...
distracting...waa~
things were ok jz now...but...
m i being 2 harsh??
i shud say sumthg bout dat rite??
damn it...jz tel it 2 my face la...
no need 2 be sarcastic...

~i hate dis part rite here~

philosophy assignment yg sengal... =p

2009-02-13T00:19:00.000+10:00

im supposed to work on da 2nd draft of my philo assignment now (the 1st draft is soo like rubbish..duh) but im so not in d mood 2 do so...mentally exhausted...my to-do list seems endless...been pushing myself too much lately, forcing d body to complete lot of things at one time which mainly revovle around assignments n presentation...dis philo assignment is a truly challenging one..digging into the aims n objectives of KBSR n NPE, critical analysis in investigating how far hav they achieved their targets....maximum usage of critical n creative thinking skills..waa~

"saye penat+malas"

adios foundation...hello degree! =D

2009-02-11T02:59:00.000+10:00

1 and a half years of foundation program was officially over as d year 2008 ended...entering 2009, m crafting over a new piece of leaf as i start my journey as a degree student of TEFL program...as i am in a twinning program with QUT, Aussie, d title of a degree student promises more thorns than roses as i have to work harder to fulfill d requirements of all d 'mat salleh' in ensuring dat im qualified to be one of d QUT's students....haish~ n it definitely comes with a price--> more works!!
d foundation nite dinner marks d end of our journey as foundation students....yay!we r no more foundation students! =D
new classmates...new subjects...new lecturers... new world??

though i have new classmates now, the special bond i had with my classmates of foundation class 1.1 n 2.1 could never be replaced...we had gone thru d growing n maturing process together n together, we had evolved..... =)

pictures can paint thousand words...

2009-02-11T01:43:00.003+10:00

a picture can paint a thousand words....these pics illustrate the joy n happiness i had wit my besties...it portrays the memories we created together throughout our journey of frenship...every memory attached to each picture is very dear to me n i would always cherish all those precious moments we had together ... love my super nice-haywire-crazy friends so much... =)

~d journey as a foundation student~

2009-02-10T18:27:00.000+10:00

Embarking the journey as a foundation student in the B. Ed TEFL program, I have to say that im blessed with a circle of gud frens who stand by me throughout all d circumstances, be it in sorrow or in happiness…as I evolve throughout da years, our frenship grows stronger and closer…

~najato, me,far n becky~

da 4 of us quickly bonded when we first met as we were placed in d same class at d beginning of our foundation program...we went thru d suffering n torturing orientation week together n we are still very much close to 1 another... =)

~wani, me, far and becky~

dis pic was taken during our first dramatization performance.... wani was d princess n d 3 of us were d fairies....hee~ =) dis is when we first learnt to develop our so-called acting skills... wink*

~during our social studies' exhibition~ ~da wholesome of FC 1.1 students~

da very 1st step... =)

2009-02-10T17:55:00.000+10:00

i believe this is amongst d earliest pic snapped at my college, me being a teacher trainee at special teachers training institute, cheras...i started my foundation program as a TEFL student there in July 2007...we were assigned to b da 'food giver' to the participants of english language camp which was held at our college that time...da 2 frens are amongst my coursemates...oyy boy, we looked innocent back then (espcially becky wit dat hair cut =p) reflecting on those days, i can see how all of us have gone thru changes and transformed (hopfuli towards becoming better people) in our pursuit of becoming future teachers... =)

~GreaT TeacHers iNspiRe~

leaving behind my beloved 'kmp'

2009-02-10T11:57:00.000+10:00

upon completing my matriculation program in april 2007 at kolej matrikulasi perlis, i was so thrilled to get my feet out off da place, not realizing how much would i be missing the place and the journey i had there..being away from home for the first time, i didnt reli enjoy being at kmp (though it's juz 15 minutes away from home.. =p) as i constantly missed home, wanting to be with my family...however, now that i no longer belonged there, i found myself wanting to turn back the time, spending time with my beloved frens especially my fellow H2T1 classmates, doing all the little things together..

~i miss my kmp’s frens who call me by my full name so that there’s a meaning to my name…
~i miss waiting at da ‘pondok’ n go to da class together with my classmates…
~i miss shouting ‘datin’ from da ‘pondok’, urging zatul to hurry or we’ll be late to class…
~i miss da journey of going to da ‘dewan kuliah’ n ‘blok tutoran’ together with my classmates…
~i miss sitting in ‘dewan kuliah’ n listening to math’s , bio’s n chem’s lecture…
~i miss entering d lab, carrying out all sort of experiments…
~i miss playing around wit da microscope…
~i miss finishing tutorial class early n have lunch together wit my classmates at cafe ‘hafa’…
~i miss mimi, who feeds me when im hungry in da middle of da nite…
~i miss hanging out at mardziah’s, zatul’s, husna’s, che am’s n nadiah’s room…
~i miss nurul nadiah mohd fadzil n siti amhani hassan…
~i miss spending time at nadiah’s room together wit am, chit-chatting and gossiping around…
~i miss my little study grup, wit nadiah n am at room 210…
~i miss da last nite i spent at nadiah’s room, also wit am, revising bio 4 da last time 4 final…
~i miss all da great frens i had at kmp…
~i miss all da places i usually ‘lepak’ at, at kmp…
~i miss my dearest H2T1 classmates…u guys rock my world!!
~i miss my beloved kmp so much…

~my sweet memories at kmp will always be treasured…it’s been a wonderful journey frens!!~